Distance

Distance is something that I find to be so odd probably because its all relative. Some times the same thing can be seen in so many different ways by different people in different times. The thing that intrigues me so much is the barrier of distance between two people. I don’t only mean in a physical lovers sense but more so the distance between two people. I don’t know what worst. Being so close to someone you love and having to be so far in terms of distance you live in or being so close to someone that you are in the same city, area, block, apartment, room but having your soul feel so far from each other. I’ve moved around a lot of the past four years and every four months or so I’d have to pick up my stuff and leave everyone I was close to for a new destination. However the odd thing is that whenever I left to go to a new place, my relationship with the people I was closest to always for some reason grew stronger. And after that separation when we are finally within a couple minutes to each other that we are no longer as close.

So does it really hurt more to love someone and be so physically far from them or does it hurt more to be so physically close to them but have your hearts/souls be so distant? Is it worst to turn over on you bed and have an empty spot for someone or is it worst to wake up next to someone you feel so distant? Does one potentially cause the other some how. Are the expectations different? Is there a greater gain from being apart from someone you love because you enjoy every moment you do have all that much more?

I don’t know the answer to this, or if it even has an answer but the closest thing I can compare it to is if you don’t eat chocolate for a month and you finally get a small quantity of it, it doesn’t even matter what kind it really is but you will enjoy it so much. Where as if you eat it everyday then you are pickier about the type you want or the flavors or what store you might even get it from. This leads me to yet another question; does a physical barrier to something we want or love actually drop our expectations which we would normally have?

DD: Bonsai