Walls

What is the purpose of a wall? It is to keep someone/something out of your side or your property. In history there have been a couple major walls which were built, east/west Berlin, China/Mongolia, there was also this iron curtains wall between communists and capitalists… either way whenever one side felt threatened they would build up a wall in order to safe guard their thoughts, way of life, people…etc. Looking back at history we see that those who ended up building the walls often seem to marginalized more so than those who just woke up with a wall built.

Why is that the case? Was it that the other side was just better able to grow and be dominant and progress or was there something about putting up that wall and sticking to your beliefs that maybe slowed one’s progress? I’m sure there are many historians and people who have studied politics who have a theory on this, in some sense I’ve always thought it was the second. Over the past couple of days I’ve begun to hope that its not really the case, and that its just a coincidence about the walls and the overall growth and accomplishments of both sides.

I guess that I find myself putting up walls in order to assure that I only keep in people and things, which advance me towards my goals. It’s a common thing I assume most people do. Its been particular difficult because I know there is someone who I should be keeping out but who my heart wants in. I feel as though my mind has built up these walls (with good reason), but that my heart is trying desperately to tear them down before it’s too late. I want to believe that even if I do end up putting the wall that it will be the right decision and that it will help me move forward. I don’t want my progress to be slowed because I put it up, but at the same time I want to protect myself from the “evils” of the other side.

I wonder if all the leader who chose to build the walls which kept their people from growing, if give the change they would have not built it. If they would have thought it was better to just move forward.

Toes

Have you ever thought what it would be like if you lost a limb (a non vital limb)? How different life would be without a finger, or toe, or arm, or leg? Its not something that I every though would cross my mind but over the last little while certain events have prompt my thought about this; specifically about cutting off a limb. Assume that one of your toes had a frost bite and that it was infected pretty bad. If the doctor said that there is a small possibilities that with a new change in season that you wouldn’t have to worry about it refreezing and that it could heal. But when analyzing the overall progress of the frost bit that there is a big chance that it will progress no matter what, putting other parts of your body at risk.

What do you do? Do you just suck it up and cut it off, knowing you will probably not be able to enjoy the things you’ve taken for granted. Loosing a toe would probably put yourself off balance, would potentially mean that you can’t really play certain sports (soccer), that you might have to go to therapy to relearn how to walk. It would probably look/feel odd if you wear sandals. At the end of the day, its just a toe, many people have lots them and have been perfectly fine, but this is your toe. A part of you which, you never really imagine having to live without. But a part of you which recently has repeatedly slowed you down and caused you pain and which has been recommended to cut off. How do you know when it’s the right time to give up on it healing and just take it as a dead potentially infectious part of you which you need to let go no matter what that means? How long after you cut it off will you keep pondering if it was indeed the right choice?

Family Day

This past weekend was the first time that all of Canada celebrated the family day holiday. The day was meant to be one wherever family would spend some quality time together, enjoying each other’s company. In Alberta, we’ve always had this holiday, well as far as I can remember. We use to have special tasks in school to celebrate this long weekend, making family tress, writing about what family means to us, describing what we enjoy doing with our family..etc. I’m not sure if they started this in school all across the country but I believe it’s a good exercise. After all family is family, they are the ones who are suppose to pick you up when no one else will, they are suppose to be your safe guards, your unconditional love, they are suppose to always have your back in any way you need.

The family unit these days seem to have disappeared, parents feed up with their children, siblings being selfishly into themselves not caring about each other… everyone is just so busy and caught up with themselves. Probably why most people after a certain age are alone. Why there is so much divorce, why there are so little attributed to a real family these days. How is it that we can gain back that prestigious family entity? Is it not something we all want and cherish so much? What happens when we’re so caught up in making a new family that we forget about those people who we were born with, the ones we made our family in the past? Is it fair that we just drop them now that we want to move onto a new family? Who will you run back to one your life ends up in divorce? Should the people you abandon let you back in?

Family day, enjoy it with your family or go back to work!

Happy Red and Pink Day

Yes its that time of year again….how can I resist to put up my 2 sense about the day?

On my drive into work, I was listening to the radio morning show and they brought up some pretty interesting points about Vday (or single’s awareness day as they called it). They mentioned how today is a depressing day for most people, which makes sense. Firstly if you’re single, then you don’t have a shot at getting any chocolates, flowers or anything really. If you’re in a relationship your man/women might not feel the urge to send you super expensive flowers or gifts as that one in your office. Isn’t there someone who always gets that amazing flower bouquet, or yummy chocolates or the new fad chocolate covered strawberries? Of course that makes every gal out there super jealous she’s not special enough to get the same, and makes every man out there anxious because he only bought a card. Of course, if you have lost a loved one, this day probably makes you feel pretty crappy and sad also. Never mind for those people who are dealing with a recent break up I'm sure the scars of that love will burn today. I especially hate those who are hypocrites...yes we all know them, the ones who are so opposed to flowers, chocolates, dinner plans on vday until of course they have a man who does it.

As noted in my blog last year, vday is nothing but a marketing scheme of making you feel depressed and putting pressure to buy stuff in order to show your love. Love should be year around, and should be for everyone you love. That’s right, your family, close friend and you lover all deserve to feel loved everyday. Why is it that the media needs to create these days (vday, mothers day, fathers day, bdays) to remind us of the people we love? Are we so self engrossed in ourselves to remember to show some loving to those we care about enough to love? I’m sure if we all loved a little more everyday the world would be that much of a better place.

So day while you feel the pinch of the arrow today either, because your special someone didn’t do something for you, or because you don’t have a special someone or because you happen to be the one person in the office with all the flowers everyone hates, just remember to pass on the love.

Writer's Strike

Hollywood’s Writer’s Strike is apparently finally over. I actually not sure if its actually Hollywood or if its just the people who write English language entertainment. Either way this writer’s strike has been super annoying. Making our television experience full of reality crap and reruns. Even though I don’t have a lot of time to watch tv, I like to know when I do decide to waste an hour staring at the tube (yes I still have a tube tv) that its worth my efforts.

I can’t believe how depended the entertainment world is on these writers. Apparently a couple of award shows got cancelled or postponed because of it. The ones which were completed were apparently of poor quality. Firstly, how hard is it to say, the nominees for _____ are_____ ohh and the winner with their amazing ____ is ___. I mean really, I could have written the script for that. Ohh and of course it must be so hard to introduce performer…. From their (multi platinum album/ new album / up coming album) we are (proud to present / excited to have for the first time) ______.

Common people… how much do you really need a writer to come up with those lines? Do some research it takes 0.02seconds to find info on Google and then memorize it. Or heck practice your improve; you're suppose to be amazing artists, or actors!

Signs

I’ve found myself being in various conversations in which people are trying to understand the true meaning of people’s actions or inactions. I’ve always been an observer myself, but I never knew how much people depend on this and I don’t know much you can really tell from a person.

Some examples include, a bf/gf not being to say they love you, not introducing your bf/gf to your friends or family, having someone who loves you constantly forgetting about events or important dates, having someone who loves you driving 30km to drop off stuff to other friends but not being able to mail you something which you’ve asked for several times, having good friends constantly doing something which you have told them annoys you ….the list is really endless.

These may or may not be unintentional errors on the part of the other person, but when this happens to you how can you not wonder what it means. If maybe it’s the first sign that they don’t actually love you, that they really aren’t your friends, that for them you are not worth the effort or time it takes to do or remember something important. Does it matter how often something like this happens? Does it matter how the person was in regards to a similar situation before compared to now? How much can one wait, or endure until you have to bring it to their attention, until you really have no choice but to assume you’re not worth it to them and you need move on? Why is it that everyone hates to be left hanging yet they aren’t willing to put the effort to make sure they don’t do the same to others?

So many questions, way too many potential answers..... if they aren't bothered by their actions or lack their of... then obvious that you aren't on the same track. After a while its too hard to deny that they really don't care about you and its way to easy for them to lie and make up excuses for their actions.

***Dedicating this blog to all losers in our lives who we keep even though we know they don't care about us***